It never gets old
The feeling and thrill still gets me
After all these years I still get as excited as if it were the first time
Excitement and freight run through my veins
Scared of the criticism and hoping for the praise
Holding my breathe that the little mistake I know aren’t noticed
Hoping that no one calls me out on how they would have done it
Excitement fades and fear creeps in
The negative feeds my narrative in a dark way
Part of me wants to close my eyes
Too late now, the video is playing and the world is watching
Then you hear the “awws” and “wows” from the crowd
Slowly the tense leaves me
I can start to enjoy work
Just as much as the crowd does
Showing my work is gut-wrenching
Filled with fear and pure ecstasy
A glutton for punishment and criticism
But in the end I got what I really wanted, praise
We all want the praise, especially for the things we love to do
Day #162 SJD
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