Doubtful

Where do I start

The gnawing questions

Not knowing where to begin

Taking risks encourages confusion

Invites question that submerge me in doubt

Questions my mind can’t wrap itself around

Regretting this decision

Strongly resisting the depression that scratches away at my skin

Shoulders sink, fuck now I can’t shake the feeling I fuck up

My decision completely in question now

I would punch myself if I could

Now I must grab hold and grip reality

This choice was never going to be easy

Challenges and problem would arise

I knew going in I was not going to have the answers

Panic is over

Work the problem

Then work the next

Eventually I will have the answers

But now it’s time to work

Day #126 SJD

Segundo Juan Devora