I never asked why.
It was because I didn’t care.
We know what we want.
Sometimes we don’t know how to say it.
The words aren’t there.
The feelings are… the gut feelings.
I wasn’t sorry or ashamed.
I didn’t feel bad, just felt indifferent.
After all the years I didn’t stop you at the door.
I wanted you to be on the other side.
Happy, that’s what I wanted to feel.
When the door closed I walked to it.
Not to stop you but to lock it so you wouldn’t come back.
I wondered would I see you again.
If I did what would I say.
Probably just look away and pretend I didn’t see you.
I watched you leave and that’s the happiest I’ve been.
When something is wrong, it’s wrong.
Once it leaves you can finally smile.
Day #24 SJD
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