I Was Indifferent

I never asked why.

It was because I didn’t care.

We know what we want.

Sometimes we don’t know how to say it.

The words aren’t there.

The feelings are… the gut feelings.

I wasn’t sorry or ashamed.

I didn’t feel bad, just felt indifferent.

After all the years I didn’t stop you at the door.

I wanted you to be on the other side.

Happy, that’s what I wanted to feel.

When the door closed I walked to it.

Not to stop you but to lock it so you wouldn’t come back.

I wondered would I see you again.

If I did what would I say.

Probably just look away and pretend I didn’t see you.

I watched you leave and that’s the happiest I’ve been.

When something is wrong, it’s wrong.

Once it leaves you can finally smile.

Day #24 SJD

Segundo Juan Devora